everyday with you is like a new beginning in life. everyday is an adventure whenever i get to spend it with you. i go to sleep every night with you being the last person i think of and waking up in the morning with you being my first thought as well. and no, it’s not because of pain that i thought of you so constantly. it’s all love, baby. nothing but happiness in these little thoughts i have of you and us.
every time i have to vent, or cry, you’re always there with open arms and shoulders ready to lend them to me. you’re a best friend, a lover, a soulmate, and someone i want to spend the rest of my life with. you’re a little bit with everything. like a puzzle, it took me awhile to figure out & put together each and every piece, but after i was done with all that, you’re a lovely, beautiful person, inside and out. once in awhile, i would suddenly have a moment where i thought ‘wow, he really is mine’ and i laughed at me for being silly. it had been over a year, but that feeling is always there. i always thought it was so amazing that you are mine and that this love is so strong and magical at the same time.
and baby, even until this day, i still fall for you everyday..
- i’ve been doing squats (both for the thighs & the butt) lately and oh my gawd, the pain was just torturing though i was able to bear it. been doing it everyday for about almost a week, and i’m starting to feel AND see the difference. so im gonna keep up with this for that sexy butt & thighs kekeke. then after that, ima invest in a yoga mat to do some abs exercise since im not a gym person, so the least i can be is a cardio/home exercises person :) i can do it!
- supposedly, kevin was going to take me to shopping in LA tmr as well as going to the beach but our boss is being a jackass & decided to give out our paychecks on monday instead of thursday (our payday) so no money to shopping or to go out to fun places. plus the weather has been going on bitchy mode lately so no beaches until it’s sunny and warm again >___<
- daddy is coming back on monday! yayyy!!! cannot wait to finally see my dad again :) i miss him so much! ;~;
- next week shall be my finals week then im done with my spring semester. then it will be summer time!~ then school again during fall -____-;; OTL oh wells, life hasnt been all that good to me lately but that wont faze me. chin up, & smile~ ^___^
i am being as nice as i can be being a family member in this family. but then again, i can’t always be nice. i have a limit and apparently, people just can’t seem to realize that. i am so mad and upset and everything, including myself. i hated how easily i let my sister and her damn boyfriend taking over the room and i just can’t do anything about it. any blind person can see that my room is fckn small as hell and that me & my sister are shopaholics which means we have TONS of shits. so i dont see how my sister’s bf can ALLOW himself to literally move in and live in here with US.
i dont like how just cuz im the younger one gives them the ‘idea’ that everything they do or say, i have to obey it. i fckn hate how this is also my room but i feel like it’s not even mine when her bf literally moves his shits in here and walk around in his boxer and half naked on top. the only reason why i wanted to give my room a makeover and have things cleaned out is because we have way too much things. hence, i ended up donated most of the old stuffs. but for my sister, she only cleaned up her mess a little bit and dump everything into the drawer and her bf still has the thoughts to buy a tv and a small fridge to place inside my TINY ASS OF A ROOM. i just cant believe. and the fact that i have to wake up every morning, feeling uncomfortable as hell that there’s a guy sleeping in my room, half naked, and that i couldnt even get ready and putting on my clothes inside my own room everyday.
i couldnt explain how i feel to my mom in vietnamese but i couldnt tell her in english either so idk if whatever i said came out making any sense. but either way, i exploded and cried my heart out right in front of them. it left my sis’s bf speechless and my sis still has the guts to say all these mean things to me to make me the bad guy and a selfish bitch, like what she would always do, all the times. i hate seeing my mom getting mad about this but then again, im so upset i could kill someone right on the spot. i hate how my opinions dont matter cuz im younger and not as ‘powerful’ in the family. i know my sis helps my parents pay more bills than i do but maybe that’s why she thinks she has the authority to treat me like nothing. she sides with her bf in everything that he does, never even once did she think about her own little sister’s feelings. MY feelings. never did she even ask me if she should do this or that. never. i honestly don’t care if she’s my sister, i could have hit her right there and then but i know i shouldnt. and i hated that fact.
if only i am financially stable, i wouldn’t even bother thinking twice about moving out but because i’m not and because my parents are living in this house as well, those two are the only reasons im keeping calm and trying my hardest to put up with my sister & her bf. i dont like how neither one of these SO-CALLED “ADULTS” are respecting what i have to say or even my personal rights and space. this room, i have been living here for more than 7 years and never did i feel so uncomfortable about living in this tiny space before but now that her bf decided to move his stuffs in here and practically living IN my own room with my sister, i just no longer feel that ‘comfy personal space’ anymore. my space became theirs, my room became theirs, everything is now theirs and i cant say anything about it. if i say something, they think and call me rude and selfish. if i dont say anything, i’m the one at loss. either way, i’m doomed. i cried and cried so much today but in the end, i still came out as a bad bitch.
i honestly dont hate my sister’s bf but i hate his guts for allowing himself to move in instead of asking my sister to move out with him instead. i hate his guts to even move out stuffs and bring in stuffs for his own good with my sister. i hate his guts to act like this is his house and he can do whatever he wants. i hate his guts to kiss up to my parents and treat me like nothing as if i’m not even there in the house. i dont hate him at first but im slowly disliking the things that he does ever since he started ‘living’ here. in general, i hate people like my sister and her bf. the ones that act like this is their house when it’s not. the one that dont even respect others when they expect people to respect them. the ones that dont even bother listening to what others have to say.
i wanna thank my mom for everything that she has given me. and for always being such a wonderful mom! everything that she has done for me, i cant thank her enough for all of that. i appreciate each and every of them. i asked her for a specific gift she’d like to receive because i’d rather buy a present that she would actually use & love instead of buying her a random present that she wouldnt be able to make a use out of it :) she said a watch like mine so i got her a MK watch but in a different style and she loves it. kevin bought her flowers and im so glad it put a smile on her face. also, i want to thank my grandma (dad’s mom) for staying strong in her sick bed and for becoming healthier each day. i brought in some flowers while visiting her today and she was all smiles while talking to me. it made my heart all warm up seeing my grandma all pink and smiling so bright. i couldnt be there for my grandma (mom’s mom) in vn but i also wish her a happy mother’s day & for always giving her best regards and love to me since i was a baby. i love you mom, grandmas, aunts, & every other moms out there, you all deserve to be loved! <3 happy mother’s day to all the moms out there. you all are wonderful!
- though i havent been ‘shopping shopping’ lately, im still broke as hell. i still owe kevin a whole lots amount of money but i’ll probably pay him off by next month (hopefully)
- bought a drawer ($270+) from ikea & had my lovely boyfriend and a friend of ours assembled it for me and i lub it sfm! though the only thing i hate it is that it’s a bit too high for my short height :(
- bought momma a michael kors watch for $245.xx and i showed it to her earlier and she lubs it and it fits her perfectly cuz i measured my wrist in which she also has the same size of wrist as mine :)
- promised kevin i wont be shopping until i pay him all off and that i pay my credit card all off too then he’ll let me shop until i drop. i hope i can go shopping again soon T____T
- saw a very pretty michael kors bag and i lub it so much and kevin hinted to me that he might get it for christmas (another 6 months of waiting… lolol)
- been cleaning my room nonstop everyday and i literally gave my room a makeover, well, sort of. i still need to fix it up a bit more but mommy suggested that i wait for my dad to come home to help me put on a shoes rack in my closet.
- daddy is coming back from vn next next monday (20th) and i cant wait to see him <333 i miss my daddy so much already! and im sure our little pompom, mimi, misses him too ^___^
- kevin took me on a movie date today to watch the great gatsby and it was amazing. i love leonardo decaprio, he was so amazing in his character & very handsome too <3 the book was great but this movie version was pretty accurate and awesome too :) good night~
- just heard the news, daddy’s really sick in vn atm and im so worried ;~; i heard that daddy originally supposed to return in mid june but he has shortened it until around the end of this month cuz he was worried about mimi and that he didnt want to stay there for too long. he got food poison and a bad flu :( so worried for him T___T get well soon daddy <3
- had free time in my hands today so i decided to take down ALL of my kpop posters (not cuz im no longer into it, just that it takes up too much space) and my fingers almost feel like it was falling off ;~; but my room looks much brighter now! cant wait to buy new furniture to fix up my room :)
- sister was being a brat this morning about taking my shit w/o asking me again just cuz she thought i was too deep asleep to even noticed but i caught her & she called me “slut” in vietnamese, real rude & so not appropriate coming from an older sister like her. she took off the shirt that’s mine and threw it right at my face and when i told her to fold it and put it back into my drawer, she was like “FCK THAT” -___- i was pissed but because my vietnamese skills cant compete with her, i strike back at her in english and it shut her up, it felt good for once lmao. even though idk if she understands what i was saying. woke kevin up for that cuz i was so mad i needed to vent it out to him but yeah.
- planning to buy a drawer with LOCKS cuz of my damn sister pissing me off so much about always taking my shit w/o my permission and never take care of it and yet, even call me disrespectful & selfish. ughh. i wanna move out but i cant so fml.
- i honestly dont give a fck about what her bf thinks of me cuz shit, this is my house, and he should know better that this room also a part of what’s mine. he has been sleeping over everyday for over a month and apparently, him & my sister is buying a bigger closet for themselves cuz he’s moving his clothes into here too and guess who’s doing his laundry? ME! yep, my life right there. they’re both at that age to move the hell out of the house already yet they’re being so cheap & rude to sleep over under my bunk bed every night and have no shame about it. i talked rudely to my sis cuz she deserves it and the way he acts towards me changes every time im being rude toward my sister. idgaf about no nigga’s feelings or opinions especially when this room is also mine and i have the right to say what i want in it. im so pissed off.
- after a long week (5 days working straight), it’s finally friday, a day off for me to sleep in! went to sleep at 11 PM ish last night and slept all the way until noon today cuz i was just that tired.
- watched iron man 3 in IMAX 3D and it was freakn amazing. i lub the movie sfm! definitely worth every penny cuz it was $37 for 2 tickets OTL so expensiveeeee!
- went to pick up my contacts at walmart, still cant believe it’s over $100 for just 2 boxes of contacts T___T wow… sucks being blind.
- went to ikea with kevin to do some ‘window furniture shopping’ for my future room cleaning/reorganizing cuz im in search of a drawer for myself to use but i would have to come back next time cuz i dont have ‘the money’ for it as of the moment ;____; though i could have bought it but kevin said i needed to think over my money issues first lol T__T
- didnt buy anything at ikea but kevin ended buying each of us a very comfy pillow ^___^ lol im still happy cuz i finally get to throw away my old, not so comfy (& clean) anymore pillow :D
- woke up this morning i was really tired and sore, been feeling really sore lately on my right shoulder and it hasnt been going away yet :(
- kevin had 2 cakes for his bday, one from our workplace and one from me ^___^ treated him to his fav. AYCE kbbq for his bday dinner :) happy ‘belated’ bday to my boo <3
- sister and her bf bought a giant closet/drawer for them to use and im planning to clear out the other side of my room for more space to put my clothes and decorate my shits >____< and that definitely requires all that $$$ so yeah… OTL
- it is officially may, so let hope this month would be good to me! ><
- it’s officially kevin’s 22nd birthday as of 57 minutes ago :) already gave him his SUPER early present which was the beats audio headphones & wrote him a birthday ‘letter’ too ^^ gonna take my bday boy out for a treat tmr as well <3
- daddy left last night & sister had a late bday party last night as well, everyone was so out of it and threw up all over my house T____T had to go to sleep with BARF SMELL which was so gross & uncomfortable ;~;
- seeing our dog, mimi, couldnt eat and sleep cuz of how much she misses daddy, is just so heartbreaking. every morning when she wakes up, she would look for dad. and every night before she go to sleep, she would also look for dad as well :/ and daddy called earlier saying he has arrived in vn and the first thing he asked is asking about his precious baby, mimi… instead of mom, my sis, OR me -____- lol our puppy is even more important than anything else in my dad’s eyes. im jealoussss ><
- anyways, happy birthday to my one & only dragonball, kevin thay! cant wait to shower him with love tmr <333 good nightt :)
- been going back and forth from my optometrist office for over a month now and i finally settle down with a brand new brand of contacts for my eyes. no more circle lens for me (im sure of it i think) because of my astigmatism. spent over one bill on my exam and purchased the contacts for my eyes. because of my astig, the lenses are a lot more expensive compare to the reg. ones OTL
- no more shopping for me until next month (3 weeks approx.) when kevin will be taking me to the saturday wholesale market thing in LA again which will also be our 14th (?) monthsary, so i gotta save up and hold myself back until then.
- daddy’s leaving to vn tmr and i gave him 2 bills (too little but since im too broke so…) to spend in vn & he’s gonna have a LOOONG vacay all the way until june ish, lucky dad T___T
- planning to clean out my room a bit more and buy drawers for more room for my clothes that keep coming in x____x i need more closet space ;~;