i wanna live in an apartment with you where every night, going to sleep with you holding onto me and waking up every morning next to you. i wanna live with you where we can try and learn how to cook together. i want to live a life with you in a house where we can run around in our underwears and feel carefree about the rest of the world outside our apartment. i want to experience this adventure with you and explore the outside world apart from my own comfort zone at home. it might seems like a big deal and requires lots of planning but trust me when i said i’m willing to move out and live with you. people can say all they want but i feel like i’m married to you long ago, just not official, duh. moving in with you? not a problem to me. i’d love to make that happen as long as i put my mind into it and save up for the plans. and like you’ve said it, nothing is impossible. so here i am, looking forward to that day when things settle down and we’re stable enough to move out and live together. <3

after i graduated from high school, i honestly did not feel excited to start a new chapter in my life with college. even during my senior year, i was already stressed out over college and messed up my college plans. and yes, i did regret it a lot. i guess everyone has different views on education. but as for me, of course i’d love to have a bright future ahead of me with a stable career and earning money for a living. but then again, i just stopped having that ‘will’ to work hard in school. not that i don’t wanna attend college or anything, just that i found myself losing the motivation and the idea of attending college. i feel useless sometimes cuz of my lack of motivation in going back to school. my parents asked me why i didn’t wanna attend college, and tbh, not that i don’t want to. just that i don’t feel like going. i hate school. i hate studying. i’m scared to think of what i have to deal with once i attend college. and i’m dead scared of the idea of having to plan out my future. mom and dad came to a conclusion to let me decide on my own future. they gave me the option to do what i think is right for myself. as time goes by, i just become more afraid of thinking about getting myself together to go to school. i don’t know where to start, what to do, or what i wanna study. the thought of having to go to school, figuring out what i wanna major in, and study my ass off for that damn degree, scares me. people tend to judge me for not attending school and it bothers me at first but now, i’m over it. they don’t know me. they don’t know what i want in my life. just cuz i don’t go to school doesn’t mean i’m any less than them. and just cuz i don’t think of my college plan does not mean i have decided to give up on school. i guess i just need time to think my life through. what i want, what school i wanna go to, what major i wanna get into, and how i’m gonna get there. i need some time to think, i guess. but damn, i wish i have the motivation to go to school.

• me: I wish I had nice legs
• me: I wish I had a nice bum
• me: I wish I had a nice stomach
• me: I wish I had nice hips
• me: I wish I had nice boobs
• me: I wish I had a nice face
• me: I wish I had nice skin
• me: I wish I had nice arms
• me: I wish I had nice hands
• me: I wish I had nice feet
• me: I wish I had nice hair
• me: I wish I had nice nails
• my body: lol no